Emo April

too many unpleasant things that really happened in this April ...
At school , I laugh like a sampat kia 
At home , no any facial expression...
just only think and think the mistake that I did 
Although is a small mistake ..
what the hell with me ?
what the hell in this april ?
today ...
stay at school for practicing choir exam 
then .......................
i think after this day 
i could never to be stay without any reason 
except society activities ...
she said I'm not thinking of other people ...
cause I am an annoying thing for she ...
she scold me why i choose like this society ...
why i can do what i want and without thinking of other people 
我真的不知道要怎么做啊....
i created the annoying for myself ....
I WILL KISIAO SOMEDAY !!
can i find someone and cry with loudly .....?